happily ever after...

I am losing a very fierce fight inside of myself right now. What is there to say when everything is going wrong? The hurricane is at it's worst. The little things that once were your shelter are plowed over and the people near by are just as scared and distressed as you are. Is there really anything else you can say?

A clever one may say, "oh no! the sky is falling!?" and think very little of how unecessary their previous observance was.

Another may say nothing because the sheer fact that the sky is in turmoil and the ground is quaking... is enough to fill them with fear and further expression would be unbearble.

Still others may not make it through the storm in good shape; losing things they were holding onto too closely or people that were near them.

However, I can't help but believe that there must be just a few people out there who can wade out the storm. Someone who took what was coming, in stride, and persevered to be of assistance when the storm cleared.

In my life, things have never been smooth. I know I mention this a lot... but it's all I can really talk about. God's grace delivered me through those things. I can not deny that. It doesn't mean that I did it gracefully... it doesn't mean that I am one of those last kinds of people I mentioned... No, it probably means that I'm a little bit of ALL of those kinds of people.

So why am I writing? Why do I almost always right about struggles? Why do I almost always write of my problems or of my past? Well, the thing is... all I have is God. God is the only thing that all of my struggles have in common. God was there before, during and after every fight, every death, every sleepless night... he was there and he has definitely shown me that he will still and always be there. He reminds me every day of how I am a princess. He reminds me of the virtues and the promises I have made with him and how valuable I am. He guides me to see where my future will be, and with who and how I will live my life. God has a plan and he never ceases to remind me that I am looking forward to an "happily ever after" with him.

God is good... He wants to have a happily ever after with all of us. Never forget that. Never.